SEEKING THE LIGHT

sometimes, we need to stop for a while and see how much progression we have made.

we also need to remind ourself constantly with the aim we want to achieve in our life... sometimes we just tend to forget the main objective and start to focus on less important matters.
to maintain who we are is hard, so do to improve... changes are a norm, we cant avoid it.

The among the most important matter to me is to explain my own behavior or feeling. I need to know why I like, and why I hate. If I can clearly understand all this, I will become more clear with myself and will have more confidence. What are my strength? my weakness? I need to know all of it..So that I can strengthen what is weak, and take advantage of my strength. Life for me is more like a war. Your enemy is your self. The environment does shape your thinking, but a if you are strong enough, you can use the environment for your own benefit. In life, what matter is not the world i.e the external (environment), but how you interpret it...

Not only we ourself creates our own world, others too.. We see this world differently.

sometimes we have to force our self to do things that bring benefit to us, and also we have to overcome our fear. Other than that, useless pride that keep us from advancing further are also have to be thrown away. Never afraid to throw away nonsense like common sense that are narrowing the thinking.Lots of common sense we have today is not even a fact, but a mere believe that comes from movies, misinterpretation of experience, and a lot more. You do not even realize that you have adopted the believe. for instance, people may think that 1 in 20 people may have a heart attack, but in reality it is 1 in 3.

it is 3 in the morning, and i am sleepy. But, i am worry about my english for academic purposes a.k.a eap. I do research on the safety of aspartame. It is an interesting chemical, and lots of unsettled controversies since its approval by u.s fda in 1974. Oh, by the way, i should have mention this earlier, its a sugar an artificial one. Huh... There are so many postulates that we can consider them to be a myth. Well, there are no concrete truth about aspartame. I want the research paper or the primary source of the experimental result of aspartame. Cant found any that really convince me aspartame is the culprit causing all those creepy symptoms i.e migrain, multiple sclerosis, cancer..
Quite mental here. Which is the truth? Arghh... Need to read more and compare. Anyhow, now i cant sleep. Even consider not sleep at all. Not only eap, there are several other issues left untouch waited to be solved. My brain is still working, just become more weird than it usually is. It started with it questioning about the rain drop shape, and now the comparison between spectacled and normal person field of vision. For normal it have to be 200 degree(horizontally) for me? Its 140 degree. 60 degree different. More hillarious. For a normal person, 1 eyes is equal to 160 degree. More than i can see with both of my eyes open. -the figure is just approximation, but it does compute. If i keep posting this unnoticed simple things, i think it is kind of annoying to read. Btw, regarding the field of view, i dont do futher research on it, just a theory that seems logical. I did measure my own field of view.haha up next is: is the length of a stride or step is related to the height of a person? If yes how can we knw its a stride or a step? And can we also know the height of the person ? Assume that, he or she walk on a soft ground good enough to leave a trace. This will take quite a time. Who knew let me know it.
Everything is now new to me, its only this recently i realize i have overlooked too many beautiful things i.e drops of water.